Maybe it’s my menopausal emotional mood swings?
Maybe it's because I turned 50!
Maybe it is celebrating Christmas without my children all together
this year?
Maybe it’s the fact my dad has been gone a year this
month, and I want to hug him so much? I would love to hear him say, “Hey Sissy,” just one more
time.
Maybe it is all of the heart-wrenching CHRISTmas videos I
am seeing on Facebook? I don’t
know what is doing this to me? But, I am a mushy mess! Christmas is such an emotional
time.
Last week, I was taking pictures at our church of Santa
reading the story of Christ’s birth to the children. Santa asked the children if they knew the true meaning of
Christmas, and one little boy stood up and yelled, “Jesus!” Wow! Out of the mouths of babes! The church erupted in clapping. He brought a big smile to my face.
Later in the service, the children went downstairs to celebrate the birthday of Jesus. They were gathered around a table playing with various toys. But, while they were doing this, they were singing, “Happy birthday Jesus…I’m so glad it’s Christmas.” (If you don’t know the song, check the link below.) I couldn’t help but tear up. And as a photographer, it is quite difficult to take pictures while boo-hooing like a toddler who just got time-out.
This has been my emotional rollercoaster for the last 7
days…up and down. One minute I am
laughing hysterically, and the next I’m sobbing into what is now the third box
of Kleenex I have opened this week.
Tears, however, are not always a bad thing. The first video I watched on Facebook this
morning was of children who were given an early Christmas present. This present was their father returning
home from serving overseas. I
cried like a baby! But, those
tears were happy tears. Those
children were crying too, but everyone involved was happy.
The second video I watched this morning was the story of a
young mother who lost her husband in a car wreck, just 14 weeks after the birth
of their son. The baby was also
injured in the wreck, but survived.
The video centered on the mother thanking the hospital staff who saved
her son ten years later. And, it
had a happy ending. But, all I
could dwell on was the loss of her young husband. I cried again, but this time, I was so very sad.
Life is full of good and bad things, and maybe God does
this on purpose. We cannot truly
appreciate the good things unless we have the bad to compare it to. 2014 taught me this lesson very
well. I lost my father (very end of 2013.) I had difficulties in my marriage. I had difficulties with work. I also injured my back and treatment
for this caused my hair to fall out.
It just didn’t seem like it could get much worse.
But, our oldest daughter, Amanda, got married to an
amazing man this year, and we now have a bonus granddaughter to boot. And, our younger daughter, Ashley, had
a documentary, “Tig,” she co-produced, chosen for the Sundance Film Festival
for 2015. Our oldest son, Brad,
won two KPA awards for his work in journalism, and our youngest son, Jordan,
was hired to work for American Airlines. I am so proud of our children! Too obvious?
Along with the good things happening for our children, I
was offered a position teaching full-time for a technical college. This has always been a dream of
mine. And, I renewed my wedding
vows to my husband…who just also happens to be my best friend. We also have a roof over our heads and
food for our bodies…many people do not.
It is truly a good life. God has blessed me so much! And, to him I give all glory!
MERRY MUSHY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!
Kim
May your hot flashes be mild and your wrinkles even milder.
Kim
May your hot flashes be mild and your wrinkles even milder.
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